Remember that 3 month post where I was all, "Jack sleeps through the night."
I take it back.
Literally, that night Jack decided that it was useful to add the 3 am feeding back in.
Then the 3 am moved to 2 am
Then 1 am...and again at 4am.
Last night it was 12:30am, 3:00am, 5:00am. I went to bed at 11pm. Shoot me.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY CHILD?!?!
I acknowledge that if you read about his age, 2-3 nightly feedings is supposedly normal. I also acknowledge that a lady at my Mom's Group has a 6 month old and she's still having the same problem. I am not alone.
The problem is that I have tasted the whole "sleep through the night" thing and boy is it sweet. To go back to what feels like newborn sleep habits...makes me a little cuh-razy.
I feel delirious and slightly insane when he wakes me up at these crazy hours of the night. I keep lying there in hopes that Jason magically grows boobs...hasn't happened yet. I've contemplated slipping crushed estrogen pills into his dinner. What's held me back is the fear of being caught...that and I don't know where to get them.
Crazy. Sleep deprivation makes me nuts.
In all seriousness though...I feel myself getting really frustrated when I go in more then once per night. I can do one time...like a 3 am feeding. Other then that though I kinda get P.O'ed. I am not that mother who jumps at every moment to drink in my baby...even if it's when I should be sleeping. No sir. I need my sleep.
Soooooooo. If you think of me...can you pray? For sleep. And even more so for patience. I think sleep is a HUGE love of mine. Probably unrealistically so being that I am a mom now. The kid is genuinely eating each time he wakes up. I'm not yet willing to deprive him/make him cry it out so in reality I can't hold it against him. He hasn't been taught to do otherwise. He just kinda DID the whole sleep thing on his own though...and it was so nice. And now, well, now...yeah. Maybe this is a growth spurt? Please let this just be a growth spurt?!?...
Ok, enough griping about lack of sleep.
"Buck up Anna. You're a mom. What did you expect? To get a full 8 hours each night?!? HA! Foolish girl. Go cry to someone who cares."
That's just what I needed to hear. :)
I'm off to go to bed a bit earlier tonight.
Night night ya'll.
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