So first off!
Let's pick a winner for the tote bag shall we?!?
So random.org has chosen...
Hey now! I'll shoot you message a Jeannett and snag your addy from you. :)
So friends...how are you?!?
I'm...fine. I mean, I feel like I should be saying "great" because there really isn't anything that's been happening that would warrant just a plain old "fine".
I think though that this whole move thing has kinda sunk in. Next week we will have been here two months. I would say that the novelty of being in a new place has worn off. There are things that I really like about living here. For example...the space. Our old place in San Francisco was about 500 sq ft. This place...more then double that. We have a nice, good sized backyard, a big garage, and etc. The space is really REALLY great. And I can tell Jack loves it.
Lately though I keep having this thought...what ARE we doing here?!? You see, right after we moved here we actually got an offer from USC...again. Now I don't really think we would necessarily be happier in L.A. I mean, it's more expensive and it's a big city...not really our cup of tea. I know San Francisco is a "big city" but it's definitely different then Los Angeles. Still though I kinda wonder what it would be like to still be in California and not so far from family...and near some people who I actually know! Maybe the fact that we are about to have a baby and I straight up have not a single person who I would call a friend here is just sinking in more and more. It's easy to forget that we uprooted ourselves and moved states when a lot of your routine is the same. Jack still has the same basic routine here...I still have to care for him...I still am doing the same work that I was doing in San Francisco. I think I'm just afraid that I might feel...lonely...once baby #2 comes. I definitely struggled with feelings like that the first month or so of having Jack. I went from being at work, socializing, to being at home...alone. Not a bad thing. And I adjusted for sure...and grew to love being home. But I really hope it doesn't happen again because it will really and truly just be me...with two littles. Nobody stopping by to say hi. I can't call reinforcement if I'm just at the end of my line. I mean, there's Jason but he's at work obviously.
It usually hits me hardest when I'm driving around. Probably because I'm out and about and seeing things that are still not entirely familiar to me. I often ask God...why here?!? Not in a negative way but more...in a curious way. I mean, He must have saw some reason to bring us to Arizona. The fact that I know this to be true...that there IS a reason brings a lot of comfort. I guess it's just being patient and waiting to see how life pans out you know?!?
Anyways, there are some of my thoughts for you.
And I just thought you should know that TWO people today thought that I was due uber soon and when I told them, "Nope, two more months." They both gave me a look of surprise...and sympathy. Ha! Gotta love it. This is what it looks like when a short/petite woman has a baby people! :)
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