Not sure if that's the right word.
I feel like now that I'm a mom I don't know how to interact and socialize. I feel awkward. Let me clarify that. I feel fine with the people that I've known for a while...the people who knew me before I became Mama Anna. I feel weird and out of sorts though when I meet with other moms who only have known me as a "mom". I feel like I don't know what to talk about. I used to see myself as an extrovert...kind of the life of the party...aaaaaand now? Not so much.
Maybe I'm tired?
Maybe I spend so much time with a little babbley baby that when it comes to actually talking and carrying on a real conversation I'm at a loss?
Maybe I'm slightly self-conscious about my new(ish) role as a mom?
Has anyone else experienced this?
It's a little disheartening. I feel like I really look forward to getting together with other moms and then when I do I leave feeling like, "Sheesh, I was awkward, stumbled over my words, said the wrong thing etc etc..." I've never been like this guys! I really RARELY care what other people think about me. I mean...I want people to find me kind...but whether they prefer my personality, humor, style...meh, I never cared. Now...I feel like I do. And I don't know why/what changed?
Not sure what exactly I'm saying. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else experienced/is experiencing this...?
Or maybe I was just always awkward and in denial??? ;) People who know me...don't answer that! ha!
You're awkward. :-) J/k. You were always the cool-cat. Ya, I think I remember those feelings, although as your kids get older, it opens up a social world in a GOOD way. I think of how many instant friends I have here simply because of my kids' ages. But, I think I've posted on this same thing a number of times... that it's just hard for me to think of anything "interesting" to say other than how many times I've changed a diaper or how many tantrums I've handled that week. :-)
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